heavy and slow

[preyformercy]

nightmares.

lost count of # of coffees.

good news. getting new car... album list...

tooth extraction, numbed up, stroke the cavity w/yr tongue... soft absence, bloodbloodblood, like that with brain. everything...

holding myself together, doing such a great job.
what if i want to self destruct? what if i want to collapse? i don't want to be a person.
would that let people down or would they care or

doesn't matter. like what other people do.

it's my life.

figuring things out. sucks. necessary